The After Part II

The truth is I’m in a really fucked up place right now….all of us that are struggling with these losses. It’s a  really dark and challenging time. Some of us drink others drink coffee others of us don’t talk. The thing all of us have in common is that unspoken question: “Do you miss them too” We all know the answer but don’t want to cry in front of each other.

So we Face Time and sit in silence on the phone and look at each other and smile or try.  Sometimes my big brother calls at 4 a.m just to say “Hey, you asleep?” Then we stay up til the sunrises and then fall back to sleep. We all in our own way can’t stand the dark. We knew this after was coming but damn does it suck. Still we manage to make each other laugh. (We’ll it’s mostly me making them laugh)